allonlinenovel Chapter 136 Don’t want to die
Chapter 136 Don’t want to die
Mo Jingchun didn't know that Lou Xiao began to suspect that Nan Zi was behind this. He guessed that Lou Xiao was an official.
But she had never expected that if she misunderstood, Nan Zi would be dragged into an irretrievable situation.
He was dragging his feet, trying to put everything off until later.
Once everything was exposed, many of the things he had done in the past would inevitably be known to her one day.
His hands are not clean.
By that time...how would she see him?
Mo Jingchun was panicked for a moment. For the first time, he felt ashamed of his past and was afraid of seeing contempt in her eyes.
He could accept her indifference, ridicule and even teasing, but he could not despise her.
Officials valued a clean family background, and she looked unruly, but in the end——
There is a huge gap between him and his identity.
He is of lowly status, but not a dirty person.
If it can be delayed a little bit... just a little bit.
Mo Jingchun laughed at himself in his heart, wondering how he had become like this.
What he coveted at the beginning was obviously just a moment of happiness!
Lou Xiao was completely unaware of the myriad thoughts going on in the minds of the people around her.
She only focused on adjusting her body, looking at the dark river below her feet, and suddenly asked,
"So...we're going down?"
Mo Jingchun was startled by the interruption of her thoughts. She looked eager to try, as if she was not afraid of the potential risks at all.
And she didn't seem to consider whether his broken body could survive her.
Mo Jingchun thought for a moment that this was also good.
If he died in the dark river, he wouldn't have to tell her anything in person, nor would he have to face his miserable past.
"it is good."
Perhaps seeing his absent-mindedness, Lou Xiao made him a promise.
"Don't worry, I will never abandon you as long as I am alive."
Mo Jingchun lowered his eyes and shook his head, "No... If you really can't, please get rid of me."
He acted nonchalant, "Have you forgotten? I am already dying. Death is something I would love to have."
Lou Xiao laughed and said, "People who really want to die won't talk about death so easily.
I see you are desperately looking for reasons not to die. Every time you say the word "die", you just hope someone will tell you - live."
She laughed at his cowardice, "How old are you? Why are you still trying to be coquettish and cry?"
Mo Jingchun almost lost his soul when he heard this. He stood there in a daze. He understood every word she said.
Why couldn't he understand when I put it into a sentence?
Did she mean that he was looking for a reason to live?
ridiculous!
After leaving Qieyue Village, he will never be weak again, and will never cry again!
"Do not……"
He wanted to explain to her that he really didn't care about the end of his life, but Lou Xiao waved her hand to show that she was too lazy to listen to his excuses.
"In order to prevent you and me from being scattered all over the place, I'd better hold you. Come on, take a deep breath--"
The warm hand held his, and Mo Jingchun reflexively followed her action of taking a deep breath.
Then, without hesitation, she took him and jumped from the platform into the turbulent underground river.
The current carried him and her far away. The cold river water was like a huge hand, squeezing and tearing his and her bodies.
Mo Jingchun looked up in the flowing water and saw what she said, but unfortunately the roaring sound of the water drowned out everything else, and he could only see the happy smile on her face.
It is the courage to challenge the unrestrained and uninhibited indulgence of nature, it is to have enough confidence in oneself and enjoy the process of danger and victory.
What kind of person is she...
The two of them drifted with the current in the rushing dark river. Mo Jingchun was numb from the freezing water that penetrated into his bones.
Their hands were tightly clasped, even though he couldn't see her face as they drifted.
But you could also feel that she was so excited that she was about to scream.
Although the river water was also extremely dangerous, it was better than the suffocation in the narrow corridor where there was no air.
Although they occasionally ran into rocks in the river, she could always lead him to avoid them.
It's just... the risk is really too high.
No one knows where the river flows, whether there will be a narrow hole that cannot allow people to pass through.
Will the torrent burst through thousands of sharp stones and reach the abyss?
If they lose control and hit a solid rock,
Being ripped open by a stone...
Mo Jingchun was a man who had seen many storms and had killed countless people.
The ups and downs of his first half of life were unimaginable, and he sought pleasure in humiliation.
Waiting for new life in despair.
Although he always mentioned the word death, it seemed that he no longer cared about his own life.
But it has never been like this -
Jumping back and forth on the edge of death, mocking fate.
The river flowed fast or slow, passing through any danger he could imagine.
When passing through the black hole that went straight down to the bottom, she nimbly stepped on the protruding stones to slow down her fall.
With one palm he smashed the stone that was blocking his way, truly acting as if he would kill any god that stood in his way;
The river water and gravel scratched his cheeks, leaving a streak of blood. Mo Jingchun moved like a rag following her ghostly figure.
There is absolutely no energy left to think.
Lou Xiao occasionally turned back to look at Mo Jingchun. His dazed look made her laugh.
But it was covered by the roar of the river.
When she continued the "drifting" breathlessly, Mo Jingchun slowly realized that she seemed to be mocking him.
Of course it's laughable. Who else in the world besides her could feel happy in this?
This endless falling, weightlessness, drowning, and the omnipresent cold river water and noise,
All that was brought to Mo Jingchun was dizziness and a feeling of near death as his body mechanism was stretched to the limit.
Every inch of his skin and flesh was tense and screaming.
But he had no strength to speak, and no time to rest.
This exciting game for her was a death warrant for him.
He had no choice but to say stop.
At this moment, Mo Jingchun realized that she was right, he actually wanted to live.
No matter how many times he talked about death, it was just an excuse for him to be afraid and not face it.
The people around him took him to experience near-death, and he clearly felt the fragility of life.
If she let go of him in the torrent, he would be doomed to die without a complete body and never see the light of day.
His body was unable to control itself in the turbulence of the water, and Mo Jingchun didn't know if he had fainted several times.
Only vague memories, the black abyss is bottomless, only her existence can tell him,
They are still alive.
How long will it take...
Mo Jingchun actually felt some strange sensations later on, as if she had touched the threshold of her excitement.
I felt a little happy.
More and more blood in the water spread behind Mo Jingchun, but Lou Xiao in front of him didn't know.
She just felt extremely happy.
The water flow is slowing down. Does this mean that it is almost reaching the bottom?