allonlinenovel Chapter 263 Frustration
Chapter 263 Frustration
Qi Zhengyang said patiently, "Su Jinru, I know you're doing well now, but you don't need to humiliate me because of it. I just want the contact information of the two children. After all, they are my children."
“An Ran works in a classified unit. Even I don’t know his contact information, so how can I tell you? An Xin is the same. The nature of her work means she doesn’t have a fixed place. She’s going to the east to do interviews these two days, and then she’s going to the west to do rural work in two days.”
Qi Zhengyang: "I don't believe you haven't been in contact with them."
"Of course we're in touch! But it's not me who contacts them, it's them who contact me first. They call back whenever it's convenient for them."
Qi Zhengyang's face darkened.
Are you bragging about having a phone at home, and mocking me for not being able to afford one?
"I'm just stating the facts. If you feel your self-esteem has been hurt, that's your problem. Vulnerable people and people with guilty consciences are always prone to victimhood. No one is obligated to cure this kind of problem for you."
"What I mean is, even if I can't contact the children, they will contact me. If they want to contact you, even if you don't have a phone at home, they can contact you by letter. They know where you live and what your name is! They know your contact information, but they haven't contacted you. You should know what that means."
"They don't contact me because of the bad things you've taught the children about me over the years, which has made them hate me."
“Children are not puppets; they have their own judgment. They are so smart, don’t they know right from wrong? If they didn’t even have this ability to distinguish right from wrong, they wouldn’t have achieved what they have today.”
"Qi Zhengyang, you are a disgrace to the children. Before they left, they lived with the shame you brought them. This is not a concept I instilled in them, but one imposed on them by those around them. I even helped you cover it up when we divorced, just to prevent them from being hurt. But you couldn't control your lower body and brought this upon yourself, harming both yourself and others."
Qi Zhengyang gritted his teeth.
"Don't try to absolve yourself of all responsibility. They are my children, that's undeniable and legally recognized."
“I know you’re thinking of contacting your children now because you want to show some affection, but love that comes too late is worthless. They’ve grown up now and won’t care about your cheap concern anymore. You’re just trying to use the name of family to get something out of them. Legally, you’re not qualified. You’re only in your early forties and still able to work. The law won’t support them taking care of you in your old age right now.”
"Twenty years from now, when you lose your ability to work, perhaps they will give you some living expenses. My children have a conscience and won't let you starve to death. But for now, don't be delusional."
Su Jinru knew that she had to corner the vicious dog.
So leave room for maneuver in your words, and give him a little hope.
As for what happens in the future, we'll see.
Moreover, they are so far away, he probably will never have the chance to see them in his lifetime.
Su Jinru: "If you don't want to continue to humiliate yourself, then stop here."
Qi Zhengyang looked at the Su family members who were looking at him with disdain, and he regretted coming to Su Jinru today to ask for the contact information of the two children.
His life was full of failures, and only his two children showed some promise.
It gave him a glimmer of hope for the future.
These are his children, but he hasn't been in contact with them for years, and he wants to get back in touch with them.
So he came with a clear conscience.
Su Jinru's words, however, hit the nail on the head, leaving him nowhere to hide. They exposed the ugliest and most shameful parts of his heart that he had never seen before.
On the surface, he wanted the contact information of the two children, but in reality, he wanted some emotional comfort.
But his two children couldn't give him the affection he craved, because he hadn't given it to them, and they had no incentive to reciprocate.
In his previous life, his two children, as well as his nephews and nieces, were all respectful and filial to him.
Now, his nephews treat him coldly, and his two children ignore him completely.
He remembered something Su Jinru had once said.
"Qi Zhengyang, without me, you are nothing."
"Qi Zhengyang, without me, you are nothing." These words echoed repeatedly in his ears, resounding like a thunderclap.
Qi Zhengyang stood there dumbfounded for a long time before he realized that Su Jinru and her family members were all gone, including the onlookers. He was the only one standing there, dumbfounded.
"Qi Zhengyang, stop humiliating yourself!"
It was Su Jinru who said it.
Why is there such a big difference between Su Jinru in this life and Su Jinru in her previous life?
In her past life, Su Jinru wouldn't have spoken so sharply and harshly.
In her past life, Su Jinru was devoted to him wholeheartedly, but now, Su Jinru only has four words for him: cold and indifferent.
He was nothing without Su Jinru, a fact he was unwilling to accept, but that was the truth.
Su Jinru's departure from him was a phoenix rising from the ashes, a complete transformation.
In her past life, he was Su Jinru's ceiling. He limited her development.
Su Jinru was the pinnacle of his life. Before his divorce from Su Jinru, it was the highlight of his life; after the divorce, his life went downhill.
On the same day, Qi Zhengyang's nephew, An Rong, was also feeling lost.
Ever since that dream, the only bright spot in his life has been reliving the scenes from that dream.
Like someone soaking in bitter water, only able to survive on a little bit of sweetness.
Thinking of Daya in his dream, who was once his wife but was ruthlessly abandoned after he became successful, she eventually died of depression.
In reality, he was a disabled, ugly, destitute, and old man, not even worthy of carrying shoes for a young girl as beautiful as a flower bud.
In his dream, An Rong also married Daya at this time. Daya was shy and timid, young and beautiful, and he fell in love with her at first sight.
At that time, he was just a platoon leader, but he was allowed to bring his family to the army. After they got married, he couldn't bear to leave her, so he took her with him to the military camp.
Daya only had eyes for him and treated him with the same respect as she did on that day. They had two sons and enjoyed a sweet and loving life together for more than ten years.
In reality, however, he was nothing in the army. He didn't earn any merit or get promoted. Instead, he crippled himself and returned home to become a grumpy, eccentric person whom everyone in the village avoided.
His peers in the village were all married with children, some even taller than dogs, but he was ignored and no matchmakers would even speak to him.