Love DJ

Chapter 171 Forced

Ouyang Mengmian lowered her eyelids slightly to hide the emotional fluctuations in her eyes. She took a deep breath, as if she was suppressing the complex emotions in her heart. After a while, she raised her head, and her eyes had returned to calm, as if the emotional fluctuations just now were just a passing cloud.

"Li Xin, I've heard what you said." Her voice was clear and calm. "You chose to break up with me back then. It was your own choice. I didn't blame you, and I won't blame you now. I can only say that everyone makes different choices. For you, perhaps money is much more important than love..."

"No, Mengmian. I thought your mother didn't agree with us being together. I... Of course I was afraid of losing you, but I had already lost your mother's support and recognition... From the moment I met your mother, I knew that there was a world of difference between the two of us..."

"At that time... you know, my parents died when I was young, and my grandfather raised me. My salary was not high, and at that time, my grandfather, who had depended on me since I was a child, happened to be seriously ill, and I really needed money..." A trace of guilt and regret flashed in Li Xin's eyes.

Ouyang Mengmian listened to Li Xin's explanation, and a complex emotion flashed in her eyes. She knew that Li Xin would not lie about her grandfather, and she could understand Li Xin's situation and choice at the time, but understanding did not mean that she could accept it again.

She let out a breath of relief, the doubts that had been hanging in her heart were finally resolved.

Although what Li Xin said did not change the ending of the two people parting ways because of money, it at least made her understand that the sincere and flawless love in those youthful years was not worthless, and its disappearance was not just buried with money. This relationship even had a more noble mission - saving a fresh life.

If Li Xin had confessed everything to her at that time, she would have fought side by side with him without hesitation to find a solution to the dilemma. However, Li Xin resolutely chose another way to deal with the problem, which may mean that their love was vulnerable to trust and reality and eventually collapsed.

"Li Xin, I understand your dilemma and helplessness at the time, but I cannot accept that you gave up our relationship so easily because of misunderstanding. From the beginning to the end, I did not consider any factors other than you. The only thing I valued was 'you'." Her voice was calm, but revealed a kind of firmness. "You should have come to me and discussed it with me instead of making a unilateral decision."

Li Xin lowered his head. He knew that Ouyang Mengmian was right. At that time, he did make the wrong choice because of fear and inferiority. He was silent for a moment, then raised his head and looked into Ouyang Mengmian's eyes.

"Mengmian, you're right. I should have discussed it with you at the time instead of choosing to escape. I... I really regret it." His voice was full of sincerity and regret. "I... In the two years since we separated, I have experienced a lot and reflected a lot. I realized my mistakes and understood that losing you is the biggest regret in my life. Now God has let me meet you again, which is giving me a chance to start over..."

Ouyang Mengmian's heart did not fluctuate too much when she heard Li Xin's confession. As time passed, her heart had already been tempered to be extremely strong when facing Li Xin.

Facing Li Xin again, she was no longer the young and sensitive girl. The past relationship that had broken her heart had already exhausted all her passion and impulse. Ouyang Mengmian lowered her eyelids slightly and said nothing. She was not thinking about whether to forgive Li Xin, but thinking about what this past meant to her.

Ouyang Mengmian looked at Li Xin, and the resentment in her heart gradually dissipated. She knew that everyone could make mistakes, and the important thing was whether they could learn from their mistakes and face reality bravely.

She raised her head and looked at Li Xin's sincere and sad eyes, and an indescribable emotion surged in her heart. She knew that she had loved this man deeply and had suffered because of him. But at this moment, she felt more relieved and calm.

"Li Xin, let the past be the past." Ouyang Mengmian's voice was calm and firm. "We all have our own lives. There is no need to dwell on the past. I hope you can be happy, and I hope you can find the happiness that truly belongs to you."

Li Xin seemed shocked by the naked rejection in Ouyang Mengmian's words. He eagerly moved closer to Ouyang Mengmian, his voice obviously choked with sobs.

"Mengmian, I know I was wrong. In the past two years, I have been thinking about you all the time... I didn't spend a penny of the money your mother gave me except for treating my grandfather's illness... You may not know, but I have retired from the railway... I am now doing business in partnership with a friend, and the profit is good. Now I can pay back the money your mother gave me... We can start over..."

Ouyang Mengmian listened to Li Xin's words quietly. There were no waves in her eyes, but her heart was like an undercurrent under the lake, surging with complex emotions. She sighed softly, as if releasing a long-suppressed heaviness.

"Li Xin, I know all about your changes now." Ouyang Mengmian's voice was still calm, but with a hint of sadness. "Since the money was given to you by my mother and you kept your promise for it, just keep it... Matters of the heart cannot be solved simply by starting over. We are all growing and changing, and some things, once lost, can never be found again."

Li Xin's eyes began to turn red, he stretched out his hand to grab Ouyang Mengmian's hand, but she gently avoided him. This action made Li Xin's heart even heavier, he knew that he could never go back to the past, and could never find the Ouyang Mengmian who once loved him deeply.

"I know I did a lot of wrong things in the past and hurt you a lot." Li Xin's voice was trembling a little, "but I really hope you can give me a chance to make up for my mistakes."

Ouyang Mengmian shook her head, her eyes became firm and deep, "Li Xin, you don't need to make up for anything. Let the past be the past. We should all look forward and pursue the life we ​​really want." After that, Ouyang Mengmian turned around and prepared to leave.

She knew that her decision might be cruel to Li Xin, but for her, it was the beginning of liberation and freedom. She didn't want to be bound by the shadow of the past anymore, she wanted to live her own wonderful life. But she had just moved her steps when Li Xin caught up with her and grabbed her, forcibly hugging her.

Ouyang Mengmian was startled by this sudden action. She struggled to break free from Li Xin's arms, but Li Xin's hands held her tightly like iron clamps.

"Li Xin, let me go!" Ouyang Mengmian's voice was filled with fear and anger. "You can't do this, we are over!"

However, Li Xin didn't seem to hear her words, his eyes were full of despair and unwillingness. He approached Ouyang Mengmian again, the love and longing accumulated over the years made him no longer care about anything, he wanted to hug Ouyang Mengmian deeply in his arms to make up for the missed opportunities and regrets over the years. He believed that Ouyang Mengmian treated him the same way he treated her, and there would be no day that he would forget.

"No, Mengmian, I can't let go like this." Li Xin's voice was filled with tears. "I love you, I can't live without you. Give me a chance, I will become better, I will make you happy. I know that man named Su Jingsi, he is not your boyfriend at all, right? The reason why you said that to me is because you still love me, you want to piss me off, right?"

When Ouyang Mengmian heard Li Xin mention Su Jingsi, she was even more shocked and angry. She struggled harder, trying to get rid of Li Xin's embrace.

But Li Xin, with red eyes, seemed to be determined, and hugged Ouyang Mengmian tightly. His lips trembled, his eyes were full of crazy desire, he murmured Ouyang Mengmian's name, and then suddenly lowered his head, trying to kiss Ouyang Mengmian forcefully.

Even when they were in love, Ouyang Mengmian and Li Xin kissed only a few times. Now that they have separated, Li Xin still wants to be close to Ouyang Mengmian as usual. Ouyang Mengmian no longer has the feeling of love for Li Xin, and now she instinctively resists his closeness.

Although Ouyang Mengmian tried desperately to break free from Li Xin's restraints, the strength gap between men and women was huge. Li Xin was acting under the impulse of extreme desire and unwillingness, and her little strength seemed so insignificant in front of Li Xin.

Seeing Li Xin's lips getting closer and closer, Ouyang Mengmian was unable to break free. He could only resign himself to his fate and close his eyes, waiting for that suffocating moment.