allonlinenovel Chapter 263 How to face it?
Chapter 263 How to face it?
A complete story was told in the small house, and Mu Yun finally heard his life story in this way for the first time.
All the words that Wen Bumian said, which he did not fully understand, were connected together at this moment.
"So the other person in my body..."
"It's you with another ending, a you that is destined to end up in the realm of awakening."
Sui Jiu took over the conversation. If he was going to say it, he would say it more clearly. "Because of our intervention, you have the possibility to change and become a new you. If at the moment when Wen Bumian influenced you, you chose to become you with another ending, your final result would be to come here and become a member of this place, and fight to the death."
Sui Jiu's tone contained a warning, as if he was threatening Mu Yun, who had learned all this, not to have any uneasy thoughts and create trouble.
Mu Yun finally lowered his eyes. It was impossible to tell what he was thinking. Instead, he looked exceptionally calm and was not emotional at all because of what he learned.
"Why are you trying to scare him?" Jiang Tingwan thought Sui Jiu's words were too harsh, so he quickly pulled her towards him.
"How did I scare him? I was telling the truth. I just wanted to tell him that this is the place where he will be punished. Otherwise, what if he goes astray again?"
"If you talk less, he won't go astray." Jiang Tingwan gritted his teeth and warned in a low voice.
"It was you who said you wanted to tell him everything." Sui Jiu didn't understand. She was the one who wanted to tell, and she was also the one who didn't allow him to tell.
The human mind is so complex.
While Jiang Tingwan and Sui Jiu were arguing, Mu Yunzhong had already stood up and walked out of the house without saying a word. Jiang Tingwan suddenly remembered that the last time he showed this expression was in Cangnan City, when she told him about the misunderstanding about his life experience.
At that time, he could still go to Qinglan to seek an explanation, even if it was another lie, but at least he still had something to rely on in his heart. But now, he has no one to turn to.
After everything was revealed, he was truly alone.
"Muyunzhong?"
Jiang Tingwan stood up and called him.
Mu Yun finally stopped, without looking back, still heading towards the door, and replied calmly: "I want to be alone for a while."
He walked out of Jiang Tingwan's sight. It was impossible to tell whether he was happy or sad, but Jiang Tingwan's heart was in turmoil.
His back looked lonely, and even the shadow he cast exuded a kind of silent sadness. This was the first time that Jiang Tingwan saw the word helpless on him.
Ever since she entered Wujiyuan, she had wanted to confess to him countless times, but every time the words came to her lips, she was stopped by one thing after another. At that time, she could still attribute it to the suddenness of the incident, but now she realized that she was guilty after all.
Because among the words she said, there was one that, although it came from the heart, was also false.
She couldn't guarantee that she would be able to stay by his side every day in the future.
When the mission is over, it's time to leave. Even if she is shaken, can she stay?
She couldn't ignore this, she had never asked Suijiu if she could choose to stay in this world.
It was because she was afraid of the answer, afraid that she could stay, and also afraid that she could not stay.
Jiang Tingwan stood in the room, looking at the empty doorway for a long time without moving, but those complex voices were still lingering in his ears:
If I have to make a choice, I choose you.
Jiang Tingwan closed her eyes with a bitter feeling in her heart, trying hard to suppress the surging emotions in her heart, and finally she caught up with him.
"Don't follow me."
This was the first time Jiang Tingwan said these words to Sui Jiu.
Sui Jiu was stunned. Although he didn't understand why, he actually didn't chase after him.
The originally incomplete crescent moon turned into a full moon at this moment, illuminating the dark corridor so that one could see the bright road under one's feet.
I don’t know why, but the surroundings were so quiet. The ever-lasting night in this beautiful city seemed like an ordinary late night in the world at this moment.
Mu Yun finally felt someone following him, so he stopped but did not look back.
Jiang Tingwan also stopped behind him, and before he could speak, he spoke first:
"I know you must be feeling very complicated right now. We met because of my mission. I can't refute this. You must also be thinking about which of the things I said to you were true and which were false. I made promises to you again and again, even though I couldn't control the things. You were obviously very angry, but you had no place to vent because that person was me."
She kept a distance from him that was just enough for her to see him, thinking that at least he was not alone at this moment.
"You don't have to worry about me, and don't have to consider what I will think. Just do what you want to do. Whether it's venting, cursing, or even picking a fight... I will just follow behind you, just follow you like this..."
Her eyes turned red as she looked at the lonely figure in front of her. Her heart ached so much that even her voice seemed choked.
The person in front of him just stood there quietly, neither leaving nor turning around.
In the quiet night, after a long silence.
"No." Two words of great surprise came out of the mouth of the figure behind him, "None of what you said."
He seemed to be explaining those two words, but he was also speaking out his inner thoughts.
Jiang Tingwan was stunned and stared at him blankly, unable to believe that he would say that.
"After you told me those things, I didn't get angry. Instead, I felt unusually calm. It felt like I was listening to another person's story. The only thing that made me feel connected to myself was you and the people in those stories."
"Jiang Tingwan, I am neither as angry and resentful as Mu Yunzhong in your story, nor do I isolate myself from him after discovering the truth as Wen Bumian expected. On the contrary, I am even somewhat fortunate..."
"I'm glad that the people around me are not the same as those in the story you told me. This feeling has existed since I woke up from my amnesia. At that time, I forgot about you, but the people around me became different. That feeling was like telling me that everything in my past was just a dream, and I took the nightmare as reality."
"At that time, I just didn't dare to believe it. Out of instinctive fear, I chose Qinglan. But after entering Wujiyuan, my identity was exposed. At the moment when Wen Bumian used his spiritual power to interfere with me, I saw them standing beside me..."
Mu Yun finally felt a little bit unbelievable when he said this, and his tone was filled with a kind of shock as if he was in another world.
"You know, I was just thinking, if you hadn't woken up from Bai Wangshu's body again, and if you hadn't said those words to me, when I saw this scene, would I still make the same choice as Mu Yunzhong in your story?"
He turned around in the dim light, revealing only half of his face.
“The answer is, I won’t.”
The dark blue pupils were trembling slightly, but Jiang Tingwan's eyes were already wet with tears.
Her tears were so complicated, and the complex emotions made her heart feel torn apart.
He saw her tears but didn't dare to get close.
"Even if you lied to me, I will never be angry with you. I just suddenly don't know how to face it. I don't have the calmness of Shen Zhui. I can't love you but it has nothing to do with you. I want you to stay with me, but my heart doesn't dare to keep you."
"Jiang Tingwan, I don't know what I should do with you anymore..."