allonlinenovel Chapter 134 I don’t want to live a mediocre life
Chapter 134 I don’t want to live a mediocre life
"I know you have been secretly pushing me forward. You gave me the opportunity to invest and taught me financial knowledge; you are training me to be a woman worthy of you. I know you like women in the depths of their souls, and I will be able to meet you at the top in the future. I also know that you hope that person is me; and I am willing to be the woman in your imagination. But I am still me after all. One day, when you find that I am not the person you imagined, you will leave me."
Xin Suyan took a deep breath; her hands trembled slightly.
First time smoking, the cigarette doesn’t enter the lungs; severe coughing.
Huo Rongtian walked out of the water and put on a bathrobe;
He snatched the cigarette and crushed it in his fist;
He carried her to the bed and gently covered her with the quilt.
By saying these words, she was not only torturing herself, but also torturing him.
Seeing that he remained silent, Xin Suyan became discouraged and continued.
"You are just cultivating a woman who is worthy of you. You don't want an excellent woman who has already grown up on her own. You insist on someone who can grow with you. But you don't ask me whether I want it or not?"
"Isn't it good to grow together? If someone backs off, the relationship between the two will be in trouble."
"To put it bluntly, you are still motivated by your own selfish desires. Deep down, you still think I am unworthy."
“I never thought of it that way.”
"But you did it. The fact that I can concentrate on studying here doesn't mean that I agree with the decision you made for me; I just don't want to be mediocre in my limited life."
Huo Rongtian held her in his arms and stroked the hair on her forehead;
Each wisp is so tender that it breaks one's heart.
"You don't know yourself well enough. Xin Suyan, you have never been a person who will agree and execute when others drive you; all your motivation comes from your inner self-drive. From the first time you broke up with me, you knew what you wanted; you wanted someone who could stay by your side and provide you with emotional value; from the fact that you chose the profession of lawyer instead of inheriting your father's family business, I knew that you were a person who would fight for the career you like. The reason why we have the same commonality, running non-stop and creating our own value, is nothing more than to create a better life and enjoy the realization of self-worth."
Huo Rongtin spoke softly and with a pleasant expression, which was rare for him.
"Why do I feel so tired? Every step I take is so tiring."
Xin Suyan felt a pang in her heart and her nostrils twitched.
"You are tired, not because I am driving you or training you. It's because you have chosen a path that you are not sure you can follow. But you know in your heart that you are making the right choice. It's just that the consequences of this choice are vague. The uncertainty and contradiction in your heart have caused your struggle. If you don't feel that you are doing it for me, you won't feel tired."
"But you've helped me a lot, how can I feel like it has nothing to do with you?"
Xin Suyan's hysterical defense seemed pale and ridiculous to herself.
"Even if it's not me, there will be someone else. How can I be the only stepping stone on your road to success? You are so smart, I am willing to be used by you."
There was a gleam in Huo Rongtin's eyes. He knew best how to convince Xin Suyan to willingly accept his values.
"Love is either about mutual achievement or mutual torture. If you agree with me, you will understand that I have no choice."
Huo Rongtin hugged her tightly.
“I guess we’ll never agree on what love is.”
Xin Suyan pushed him away with force, her eyes were red from tears and her nose was dry.
His chest rose and fell slightly, and a feeling of grievance arose spontaneously.
"You hope to find someone who can resonate with your soul, and I am just a piece of the puzzle of your perfect life. Have you ever thought that maybe we are from two different worlds, and no matter how hard we try to get closer to each other, there is an insurmountable gap."
Two tears rolled down Xin Suyan's eyes, warming Huo Rongtin's chest.
"You are not my puzzle piece; this relationship is not the gap I am trying to cross. I just greedily want to take you for myself, that's all. I think I can control everything, but I can't control my own heart. I take you forward because I like to see the scenery when riding a roller coaster. I also want to take you to see the scenery I have seen and walk the path I have walked. If it weren't for the family conflict, we would have been married."
"Then why can't you let go of your grudge? Let go of your hatred?"
"How do you want me to let go? My values have changed since my brother died. I thought marriage was a shackle that maintained a lifelong relationship between two people. In reality, when you want to escape, you will break bones and muscles, and even escape with the shackles on. Marriage is not a castle to maintain love, nor is it a cage. Marriage is more like running a company. Facing all kinds of realistic interests, it is full of decency and hypocrisy. But love is not like that."
"Have you noticed that I have never asked you whether you love me or not?"
"That's because I've done everything I can to love you. Your heart is full and there's no shortage of love."
It turns out that although he looks strong, he also has a heart that needs to be redeemed.
Xin Suyan lowered her eyes. The man in front of her had changed.
It seems rational and pure, but it is actually delicate and complex.
Xin Suyan feels tired of living a life where she has to take one step at a time and look ahead two steps.
One day, their values will go their separate ways.
"I heard from Yirou that Huo Rongxin went to Harbor City to supervise the battle in person. Are you ready to lose the Harbor City plan?"
"Who said I would lose?"
Huo Rongtin's eyes were dark and full of rationality, and his slender fingers were fiddling with her little face.
"So you said before that the third plan was to provide a backup plan. If the first two failed, you would work for Ding's..."
After Xin Suyan finished speaking, she realized, could this be his excuse?
An excuse to keep her in Jiangcheng Villa.
Xin Suyan leaned in his arms, thoughtful.
"I'm just looking for an excuse to protect you and keep you by my side. If there is anything in this world that I can't let go of, it's only you."
Huo Rongtian gazed at her affectionately: "There is nothing that I cannot get through hard work and struggle, except you."
Shin So-yeon felt distressed when she heard this confession and clenched her fists into the bed sheet.
It would have been better if Huo Rongtian didn't confess, and he got the answer he wanted;
Her betrayal seemed an insult to the confession.
"But don't worry, I won't lose, because luck is always on my side."
Huo Rongtin is full of confidence, his eyes sparkling.
Most of these successful people think that it is due to their own hard work and talent, and no one thinks it is their luck.
But I just believe in fate so much.
If we look at them from a historical perspective, each of them is just a grain of sand in the long river of history;
Some are rolled into the body of the oyster and become pearls, sparkling;
Some gather the same sand as themselves to become deserts, which are vast and magnificent.
Huo Rongtian is that shining pearl;
He has numerous flaws;
However, confidence is like the sun;
Once revealed;
The stars dimmed.
Shin So-yeon knew she was attracted to his leadership qualities, and she was naturally stubborn;
I can't stop craving for his wise and rational mind.
Early in the morning, in Zhou Zhixi's office.
"Boss Zhou, what do you want from me?"
Zhang Qianlin knocked on the door twice casually and walked in arrogantly.
Recently, I have had many disputes with Zhou Zhixi over various business issues.
"Mr. Zhang, what's going on with Xin Suyan's salary?"
Zhou Zhixi spoke coldly.
"She doesn't come to work, so it's counted as absenteeism. Is that a problem?"
Zhang Qianlin looked at him with disdain.
Zhou Zhixi raised her eyes to look at her, then quickly lowered them.
"She's on a business trip with Vice President Huo to inspect a project. You wouldn't know that, right?"
"That's why the salary was deducted. The business trip application was not submitted. There is something wrong with the process."
"Zhang Qianlin, I advise you not to cause trouble. She is Vice President Huo's person."
"Boss Zhou is very busy, and he has to personally take care of the salary of a small legal clerk?"
Zhang Qianlin responded sarcastically.
"You and I both know what you are planning."
"Although you are the 'airborne' CEO, it does not mean that you are capable of managing the company. Mr. Huo is now reorganizing the company, and all procedures must be handled in accordance with the company's rules and regulations. Xin Suyan did not apply for attendance, so I have the right to punish her in terms of salary payment."
"You hate her because Huo Rongtian likes her, so you're taking revenge on her, right?"
Zhou Zhixi clasped her hands together, stood up, walked to her side, and glanced at her.
"Don't you hate her?"
"I have no ill will towards her. What's more, she is very capable and has helped Rong Tian a lot. I also heard that she went against Mr. Huo in order to help you. I didn't expect you to repay kindness with hatred? Your vision is even smaller than a sesame seed."
"Stop judging me. Aren't you hypocritical? In order to please Huo Rongtin, you even helped a green tea like Xin Suyan."
"I don't know if Xin Suyan is a green tea, but you are really an ungrateful person."
"you……"
Zhang Qianlin was so angry that her teeth were clenched. "You are really meddling in other people's business. Why do you think you are Huo Rongtian's wife? The red flag is flying at home, and the colorful flags are flying outside. Do you really think that you can win Huo Rongtian's heart by being generous?"