allonlinenovel Chapter 201 I am the coward
Chapter 201 I am the coward
The Buddhas of the Twelve Palaces.
In other words, he knelt at least a hundred times.
Wen Zhixia froze in place as if struck by lightning.
My heart was still in shock, and the softest corner was still deeply touched.
Such a rebellious person, who did not believe in ghosts and gods or in heaven and earth, knelt before all the gods and Buddhas for a small amulet.
Touched and warm, Wen Zhixia suppressed the urge to cry and said, "Thank you for telling me this. I didn't know this before."
Guang'an sighed, "It seems that all living things are predestined. If you hadn't come here to ask for a talisman for him today, we wouldn't have met, and you wouldn't have known about this."
Fan Xiaolin also nodded and said, "She didn't originally have this plan. I saw her talisman and thought it was beautiful, so she agreed to come with me to ask for one."
"The rise and fall of fate are all determined by fate," Guang'an bowed to the two of them. "Master Wen, perhaps you and he are destined to be together. If you are in love, you must understand and cherish each other."
It was not until he left Hanshan Temple, returned to Jinghai, and then returned to the staff dormitory that Wen Zhixia gradually came to his senses from the indescribable complex emotions.
She placed the health talisman beside the bed and sent a WeChat message to Fu Ruoshi:
I got a health talisman from Hanshan Temple. If you have time, come pick it up from my place. If you don't have time, I can send it by courier.
A few days ago, Fu Ruoshi returned to Jincheng. He is at the Mayfair Hotel tonight, playing golf with some of Fu Keming's old friends.
The moment he received this message from Wen Zhixia, he almost threw the ball away.
She actually asked me to give her a health talisman?
This is the first time I received a gift from her after the divorce!
Fu Ruoshi was so happy that his hands were shaking a little, and he didn't unlock the phone for a long time.
Afraid that she would change her mind if he was slow to reply, he directly replied to her voice message, "Okay, okay! I'll be right there!"
The Pagani sports car was like a silver dragon, speeding across the brightly lit cross-sea bridge, raising dust all the way.
after an hour.
When Fu Ruoshi knocked on her door, Wen Zhixia had just taken a shower.
She was brushing her teeth when she heard a knock on the door. She subconsciously thought it was Xiao Zhang coming to borrow the hair dryer again.
When I opened the door, I saw a tall and straight figure.
"So soon?" Wen Zhixia was stunned. "I thought you were in the United States."
Her hair had just been blow-dried, and it was black and shiny and hung loosely in front of her chest. Her moon-white silk pajamas made her look thin and slender, and the skin at the neckline was white with a hint of pink.
It had been a long time since she appeared in front of him in such a leisurely and homely manner. Fu Ruoshi's eyes were flustered for a second, and finally just stayed on her face honestly.
"Don't you have something to give me? Even if I were in the United States, I would fly back immediately," he said.
Wen Zhixia didn't believe it, "Is this true?"
"real."
Wen Zhixia looked at Fu Ruoshi doubtfully.
He has always been good at disguising himself, but at this moment he did not hide the expectation in his eyes at all, as pure as a teenager.
This is the method of judging people that Fu Ruoshi taught her. Now she is using the method he taught her to read his mind.
He was such a meticulous person, so afraid of being seen through, yet he was willing to give her everything he had, including his fragility and weaknesses.
"Come in quickly, it's cold outside." Wen Zhixia stepped aside to let him in, but she felt a little heavy in her heart.
She couldn't bear his expectations.
"Here you go." She took out the health talisman from the bedside and handed it to Fu Ruoshi. "I noticed that you haven't been feeling well recently, so I asked for a health talisman for you."
The moment Fu Ruoshi took it, Wen Zhixia saw beads of sweat on his palm.
The small health talisman lay in his palm. The light yellow sachet was embroidered with delicate silk thread. The moment he held it in his palm, he could smell a light scent of sandalwood.
Although it was so light that it was almost weightless, it almost broke down his inner defenses.
"This, is this really for me?" Fu Ruoshi raised his eyes, and the light in his obsidian eyes flashed with fear and burning.
Wen Zhixia dodged his burning gaze and his eager anticipation.
"Well, and please don't take it personally if I spoke rudely the other day." She looked at the ground. "I met Master Guang'an today. He said you knelt before all the twelve Buddhas to pray for a peace amulet for me. Thank you for your hard work."
Fu Ruoshi's heart sank.
He saw Wen Zhixia's drooping eyelashes and slightly parted cherry lips, which showed that she wanted to say something but hesitated. In the end, she bit the edge of her lip and said nothing.
"It's not as exaggerated as Guang'an said," Fu Ruoshi smiled, "I was just lazy and knelt in front of the big Buddha. There are more than 200 Buddhas in Hanshan Temple. If I knelt in front of them all, I might not be able to stand in front of you with my back straight now."
Wen Zhixia pursed her lips and smiled a faint smile that she couldn't help.
"That's all." She still lowered her eyes, "It's getting late, Mr. Fu. I've given you the things and I've said what I want. Goodbye, good night."
After saying that, she turned around and went to open the door for him.
Just when she was about to open the door, Fu Ruoshi could no longer restrain himself. He stepped forward, put his arms around her waist, and pulled her into his arms.
"Wen Zhixia, will you come back to Jincheng with me?" His voice was as broken as a broken string. "Let's not separate, okay? Let's leave here, leave tonight, and go home, okay?"
Wen Zhixia was hugged by him from behind, feeling his heartbeat and breath right next to her ears, and his solid chest. That was the sense of security that she had not dared to hope for for a long time.
"I will go back." She stood quietly, her shoulders rising and falling, suggesting that she was hiding her fluctuating emotions. "But not with you."
Fu Ruoshi's heart felt like it was pierced by a knife, shattering into pieces and turning into blood-red ice chips that scattered all over the ground.
"Why?" He grabbed Wen Zhixia's shoulders and turned her back to face him. "Wen Zhixia, raise your head. Look at me. Look at me while you talk."
Wen Zhixia still didn't look up.
She thought that broken mirrors cannot be mended, and since they were already divorced, what would it matter if she told him that she still cared about him?
It's just that there are more invisible shackles and constraints.
"Wen Zhixia, you're a coward," Fu Ruoshi said with a wry smile, "You're not afraid of anything except admitting that you care about me."
Is she afraid? Is she timid? Is she denying it?
As if a deep-seated wound in her heart had been touched, Wen Zhixia raised her eyes and looked at Fu Ruoshi with a defiant expression.
"What qualifications do you have to accuse me?" She pushed him away, her voice trembling. "Have you ever admitted it? I've been married to you for three years, and you ignored me and tested me, just to prove that I cared about you. Why didn't you dare ask me then? What's the difference between you and me?
As she spoke, the grievances she had suppressed for the past three years surged into her heart again. Tears blurred her vision, but she endured them and refused to let them fall.
The moment Fu Ruoshi said this, he wanted to slap himself.
He made the same mistake he made during the three years he was married to her, trying to provoke her into telling the truth.
"It's me who cares about you, it's me who wants to be with you, I'm the coward." His voice seemed to be shattered, "Wen Zhixia, forgive me."
As soon as these words came out, Wen Zhixia's eyelashes trembled, and tears finally fell like pearls, unable to stop.
The tears as big as beans fell on the floor and also fell into Fu Ruoshi's heart, breaking it into pieces.
I hurt her again.
He reached out to hug her, but saw her stepping back cautiously.
The familiar sharp pain spread from my heart again, along my throat, and rushed up...
"sorry......"
Fu Ruoshi turned around and went to the bathroom and locked the door.