allonlinenovel Chapter 220 How Can This Be the Same
Chapter 220 How Can This Be the Same
"............" I was silent for a while, looking at him in bewilderment, as if I didn't understand what he said, "What do you mean you can't stay?"
"That's it..." Xia Youjie opened his mouth, but before he could say anything, he was interrupted by me.
"You're kidding, aren't you."
I lowered my head and muttered to myself at the spirit-calling flag in my hand: "You are kidding me."
"The ritual has been completed, and the souls from the other side have been summoned." I was immersed in my own world, reviewing it over and over again, "Of course you can stay."
"Nosuo's soul was indeed sacrificed," I said. "He cursed me before he died, but that doesn't matter. He just overestimated his own abilities."
"The body is your own, it's only the brain that's different."
I scratched my head and tried my best to think: "Back then, Kuroi and Tenriko had no similarities at all, but they both succeeded. There's no reason why it wouldn't work for you."
"I have taken all the factors into consideration." I looked up and picked up the spirit-calling flag with hope to show him. "Look, Jie, your name is on the flag, and you were called back, so the ceremony was successful."
"But." He opened his mouth and said, "I do..."
"Really what?" I looked at him with wide eyes, "You're lying if you say you can't stay."
"Jay, you must be lying." My voice trembled. I didn't look into his eyes, but said firmly, "You are lying, right?"
"........."
"Jie." I rushed over, grabbed his hand, looked up at him and said, "Tell me, do you not want to stay?"
"Is it for your own good?" I guessed randomly, "If it is for this, then it is easy to handle."
"Look at me." I desperately pulled off the blindfold, showing my blue eyes in front of him, and said flatteringly, "Look, I have six eyes now. I have the same ability as Wu."
"As long as you are willing, I can be used by you." I said without hesitation, "You tell me who you want dead, and I will kill them for you. I will become a murderer and go against the entire world of sorcery..."
"Or, kill all the ordinary people and build a paradise with only sorcerers." I said, "I will do anything you ask me to do."
It doesn't matter what, just don't leave me here alone...
My heart aches so much, as if it's because my emotions are too fluctuating and I can't bear it anymore.
But I don’t have time for that right now.
The only life-saving straw is right in front of me, and I must catch him.
"I want to stay here too."
"Why on earth is that?" I couldn't help but raise my voice.
In this silent and desolate cemetery, in this dark night with no one around, it sounded particularly sharp and piercing.
"There has to be a reason! How can you say you can't stay and then I can't stay?"
"Did I do something wrong?" I grabbed the collar of his shirt, lowered my voice, and asked carefully, "Did I do something wrong..."
"That's not the reason." Xia Youjie shook his head and immediately interrupted me. He gently pulled my hand down, held my wrist, and said, "You're fine, you didn't do anything wrong."
"None of this is your fault."
"It's just..." He closed his eyes and said weakly, "This world seems to be rejecting my memory."
Me: “…what do you mean?”
"Just now, I could still clearly remember Xia Yujie's appearance," he said, "but now, no matter how hard I try, I can't remember it at all."
"How could this happen?" I said in a daze, "Are you forgetting me?"
Xia Youjie was silent for a moment: "Not just you, everything related to you is disappearing."
In a while, Suzuki Yuri will completely disappear from his world, is that right?
Just like the dormitory where Xia Youjie used to live, and the lounge where Zenin Shinji used to stay, they were all turned into dust and not left for me. Is that what you mean?
I sat on the ground, shivering all over, and for the first time I felt so clearly the world's malice towards me.
It wasn't a cursed spirit, a noose, or even any concrete individual that was cursing me.
It's the whole world that's cursing me.
I am like a mouse in a dark corner, afraid of the light. Once it gets the chance to see the light of day, it will want to destroy everything related to me.
But why? It was obviously not my intention to come here. If you hate me so much, can't you just turn me away?
Why do you have to torture me like this?
"I can feel that my memory is slowly fading." He paused and said, "Maybe in a while..."
To me, this sentence was an stimulation, but it was more like the last straw that broke the camel's back.
"Jie." I half-knelt and moved closer to him. My voice became hoarse and unpleasant, and I begged him softly, "Please stay. Please stay..."
"lily."
"Listen to me...Listen to me." I covered my head and shook my head in despair, "You don't know, you know nothing!"
"I don't like everything here now." Tears kept falling down, and I cried, "Wu doesn't remember me, and neither does Glass. No one remembers me."
No one trusts me, they are all on guard against me, and many people look at me as if I’m a fake.
"Many more people died." I said desperately, "Many, many..."
"You are the only person in this world who remembers me!" My body has lost control. I fell in front of him and said painfully, "So, I beg you, I beg you..."
Don't forget me.
Oh God, it’s okay to hate me, please, let me keep him.
I really, really only have this one request...
A soft sigh came to my ear.
Xia Youjie leaned towards me, his soft black hair falling on his shoulders. He held me in his arms and said softly, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry to leave you here alone."
"But don't be afraid," he said. "Even if I lose my memory and forget all the memories about you, we are still the same person."
"He will stay in this world with you instead of me, okay?"
"No." I bit my lip, tears falling, and shook my head desperately, saying, "How can this be the same... How can this be the same!"
If he loses his memory, Geto Suguru will become just like everyone else in this world.
He looked at me with suspicion and wariness.
I don't feel like repeating it again...