desire reconciliation

Chapter 58

When Lancelot woke up again, he found that he was still sitting on Uriah, and the man behind him hadn't woken up yet, with his arms around him hanging slightly on his legs, and he could still see the man when he turned around slightly Rested sleeping face.

His movements were not too large, but they also woke up the people behind him.

"Are you awake?" The man's deep and hoarse voice lingered in his ears.

"Why did I fall asleep?" Lancelot raised his hand and rubbed his eyes.

"Why did you ask me when you fell asleep? I don't know who asked me to tell him about the environment, but I fell asleep by myself, and I was talking vigorously there by myself."

Uriah's words seemed to be reproachful, but he didn't mean to blame him when he said it, and his voice was a little lazy.

He leaned forward and wanted to get up from Uriah, but the hands around his waist did not intend to let go.

After failing to stand up once, Uriah hugged him back again, and was pressed against the man's chest, feeling the warmth in an instant.

"You let me get up." Lancelot wanted to pull his handcuffs away.

"I'm the only one who can sit in the operating room." Uriah wrapped his arms around his waist, and pressed Lancelot's hands with the other.

"Then I will stand."

"Then try to stand up?"

Lancelot didn't intend to let him go after hearing what he said. Now his feet are in the air and his hands are being held down, and he can't exert any strength at all.

"Sit down and rest for a while, you will leave tomorrow."

Lancelot, sitting upright on his lap, asked: "How long have I been asleep?"

All electronic devices on this planet are disturbed by strong magnetic fields and cannot work, and even the time is unknown.

"It should be almost night, let's rest today." Uriah said, his head slowly approached the back of the man's neck, and finally the tip of his nose stopped at the man's neck, like a big cat sitting there Sniff everywhere.

"Are you about to go into heat?"

As soon as Uriah said this, Lancelot stretched out his hands to cover his glands reflexively, and moved his body forward again.

Uriah raised his eyebrows unobtrusively: "The smell of pheromone is not strong, don't worry, if I want to do something, I will do it long ago."

Although Uriah said so, Lancelot really didn't think so. He was a little surprised by his vigilant actions just now.

Lancelot suddenly remembered that in the past few days, in order to prevent the sudden estrus, he put the

The inhibitor Chiulia left in Rafael has always been installed with him.

Ordinary inhibitors can still be placed in the storage box inside the mech, but the active ingredient in this inhibitor is extracted from Uriah's blood, and it needs to be kept active in an environment with a comparable body temperature. Lan Sloat put it in the interlayer of his breast pocket.

But when Lancelot took the expensive inhibitor out of his pocket and saw clearly through the faint light from the top of the operating room, his face instantly darkened by half.

Uriah was in a hurry at the time, and left in a hurry after collecting blood from Raphael. Naturally, he had never seen what the inhibitor made from his blood looked like, and he didn't know what Rafael was like. He directly made the inhibitor red in a wicked way, and Lancelot already knew the origin of this inhibitor.

Uriah looked at the empty bottle in his hand that was crushed at some point and leaked with few drops left, and asked, "What is this?"

Lancelot replied dully: "Inhibitor."

"I'm such a big living person here, do you still want to use inhibitors?"

"But...?" Lancelot hesitated for a long time and finally popped out four words.

"It's expensive."

In fact, this is not what he wanted to say, but the tone changed when the words came out of his mouth.

What he actually wanted to say was that this inhibitor was made by drawing your blood, and he feels a little distressed that it is so broken now, but this sentence should not be able to get rid of such a thin-skinned Lancelot in this life. It came out of the broken mouth.

Lancelot seriously recalled his activities in the past two days, and there was no external force acting on his chest pocket. Then when did the inhibitor shatter?

and many more......

External force acts on the pocket...

Just thinking about it once...

It was just that he fell directly on Uria's back, and then he purposely increased the strength of that hug in order to ease the embarrassment.

After thinking about it, there is only one time when I directly touch that pocket.

Thinking of the reason, Lancelot's face turned darker, it was his own doing.

Lancelot's heart was very complicated, and Uriah was not much better. He began to doubt his own charm again.

How can he say that he is also the top Alpha in the rankings of the empire? Although he doesn't really believe in this stuff, Yus

If you have nothing to do, you can show him various lists, and your own ranking should be number one, no problem.

Why is it that he can also survive the estrus period? Why does Lancelot seem to regret the inhibitor in his hand?

Uriah was struggling with the inhibitor, and his tone was sour: "It's my money, why do you feel bad?"

Lancelot sighed: "I still have to pay back your money."

Uriah moved up the hand on Lancelot's waist, picked up the broken inhibitor in his hand and threw it aside, the glass hit the operating table with a crisp sound, and it was shattered. fall.

"It's the same if you let me take a bite."

When Uriah said this, he almost said it close to Lancelot's ear. His deep and sexy voice danced with the eardrums. He subconsciously wanted to hide but was seen through. The whole person was imprisoned in a cedar-scented embrace. , as if he would fall into this gentle trap in an instant.

"I'm not in heat yet." Lancelot said the words before realizing that the voice was trembling slightly. Fortunately, the voice was not loud, and it was hard to tell whether he was nervous or simply because the voice was low.

In normal times, Uriah would probably let people go because of this refusal, but now it is Uriah two months later, who has abstained from meat and sex for two months, not to mention touching little hands, even the living Less than one, he can only stare at one brief communication after another all day long, and now let him have no desires, he will feel that he is not good enough.

Uriah blew in his ear again: "Isn't it coming to the estrus? The inhibitor can also be used before the estrus, and we have to go to the research institute in the south tomorrow to investigate, if you suddenly come into estrus on the way But it’s not easy.”

Seeing that he was beginning to waver, Uriah added more fuel to the fire: "If the inhibitor is broken, it will be broken. Let me take a bite, and you don't have to pay back the money."

Lancelot is naturally also a smart person. Uriah obviously let him take advantage of it. He benefits from not paying back the money and helping him through the estrus, as if he borrowed something from Uriah. But Uriah insisted on giving him money to buy back what was originally his own.

Uriah was so persistent, it seemed a little unreasonable to refuse.

Lancelot raised his hand and gently lifted back the broken hair around his ears, exposing the delicate skin at the base of his neck.

"Then you bite."

To be honest, Uriah was well prepared, but he was still caught off guard by the unconscious movements of the person in his arms.

Pulling the heartstrings, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, leaning close to the piece of soft flesh where the glands were hidden, he paused before he could speak, "I hope you can fall in love with this feeling."

Before Lancelot could react, there was a slight tingling pain from the glands in his neck, and then a steady stream of pheromones were injected into his body from there.

With the continuous injection of pheromone, Lancelot realized the true meaning of what Uriah just said.

Omega in estrus is almost an animal driven by feeling unconsciously, while Lancelot, who has not yet reached estrus, still maintains reason and feeling at this moment.

In other words, the feeling of temporarily marking before the estrous period will be clearer and more exciting than marking during the estrous period, and it will also leave a deeper impression.

The temporary marking time is dense and long. At first Lancelot only felt the pain from the gland, but as the pheromone was brought to every cell in the body in the blood circulation, he finally Knowing what Uriah calls "this feeling" is just the beginning.

Lancelot's breathing rose and fell, and he was restraining.

This feeling is as if every cell in the body is wrapped in soft clouds, and the clouds with a light cedar smell are slowly moving in the air with the wind. There was a thin layer of mist.

If this stage is the simplest pleasure and comfort, the next stage is the age-limited happiness.

Lancelot's panting gradually became heavier, and the pale golden hair on his forehead was also soaked in sweat. His whole body seemed to melt like jelly, melting into the man's arms in a soft puddle.

Those pheromones brought to every part of the body with the blood seemed to be lurking one by one. The sugar-coated shells had already penetrated into the enemy's interior.

Due to internal and external troubles, Lancelot was forced to surrender.

Perhaps it was because the temporary marking was carried out before the estrus period this time, and it didn't take long after the marking was completed that Lancelot recovered from his absence.

But at this moment, Lancelot didn't want this reason and consciousness at all. He was still sitting on Uriah's lap, and at this moment he could clearly feel the clear outline of another thing pressed between his legs.

It's better to let him sleep directly, it's better than this embarrassing torment.

He is pretending to sleep now

It was too late, he stood up too deliberately now, and it would be embarrassing not to stand up.

In the end, it was Uriah who broke the embarrassing situation, but breaking the embarrassing situation just threw the problem back to Lancelot.

The bewitching voice rang in his ears again: "I just finished helping you, why don't you help me too?"

After saying this, Lancelot's face turned red. Even if he didn't have any common sense of gender related to ABO, the pornographic jokes made by those classmates at the Military Academy were enough for him to know what Uriah meant. .

But in fact, this is just a joke made by Uriah: "Go out for a while, wait for me to recover..." and then call you.

Before he could finish his sentence, Lancelot spoke first: "I'll help you."

After Uriah was surprised at first, he began to think about what Lancelot meant by this sentence. According to the knowledge about gender that Lancelot has shown for so long, it is almost a blank sheet of paper.

Do they both understand the same thing?

But Uriah's doubts were soon answered. Even in this aspect, Lancelot still carried out his usual straightforward and decisive, without delay.

Uriah pressed the hand on his belt, and the owner of the hand he held gave him a puzzled look.

He rubbed his eyebrows: "Are you sure you want to help me?"

Lancelot nodded, Uriah hesitated and finally let go of his hand.

Lancelot has no experience with himself, let alone others, but this does not prevent Uriah from making up his own mind at all.

Just looking at the normally aloof and cold beauty kneeling down in front of him at this moment, still doing this kind of thing, her heart was already beating wildly.

Even in the dim light, you can clearly see the blush stained on the cheeks and ear tips, and the subtle tension and bewilderment in the brows and eyes are even more cute.

By the time the matter was over, Lancelot was exhausted. Uriah hadn’t said it yet because the scene was too shocking. The time was much faster than usual, but he was not in a hurry to say it now. , anyway, sooner or later you will know.

Uriah gave up the position of the operating chair, lifted Lancelot up to it, and sat down by the wall of the operating room to rest. They needed to sleep and wait until tomorrow when they went to the research institutes and mines on this planet. Do some research.

The two are relatively silent, maybe

It was because they took too long a nap in the afternoon. Although they all closed their eyes as if they were taking a nap, in fact no one fell asleep.

After an unknown amount of time, Uriah confirmed that Lancelot's breathing was not as steady as when he was sleeping, so he lowered his voice and asked.

"Lancelot, are you asleep?"

After a few seconds, when Uriah felt that he might not get a response, Lancelot's voice sounded.

"No."

"Can't sleep?"

Lancelot grew up in the palace since he was a child. Although his character did not develop the dandy character of a child who grew up in the royal family, material abundance can easily change a person's habits, let alone a person from childhood to adulthood. Over the years, the habit has been ingrained in the bones.

Lancelot sleeps in the bed, except for the sleepwalking in Uriah's bed when he was approaching the estrus, he can sleep very well. In addition, as long as he changes to a new place, he will definitely not be able to sleep, let alone here. No ordinary place, but an abandoned planet completely cut off from the outside world.

Not to mention Lancelot, Uriah couldn't sleep the first day he arrived here, even if he knew he had to sleep to replenish his strength, in a completely unfamiliar environment, he was even a man who didn't know what unknown creatures would exist. On the planet, if you can still fall asleep without worry, it is not normal.

"If you can't sleep, I'll take you somewhere."

After Uriah finished speaking, as if waiting for Lancelot's response, he still sat by the wall without moving. After a few seconds, Lancelot slowly got up, and Uriah stood up and straightened his clothes. .

Uriah did not take Lancelot to the main entrance of the operating room this time, but opened the escape window directly above the operating platform, and the two climbed up along the stairs.

The pure white mecha lay quietly on the uninhabited planet, and the sand and dust blown up by the wind during the day fell back to the vast land, like duckweed rising and falling in the water. Calm, maintaining balance in motion.

The dust in the interstellar space and the faint light of planetary fragments scattered on the surface of the barren planet including the pure white mech. There was silence everywhere, only two people talking intermittently. dissipated into the night sky.

Lancelot: "What are we doing here?"

Uriah lay on his back on the mecha, patted the position beside him, and motioned for Lancelot to lie down too.

After he also lay down, Wu

Leah spoke slowly.

"You can see the interstellar galaxy."

He folded his hands behind his head and stared at the dark sky.

Lancelot also followed his example and turned his gaze to the night sky. The night sky here is not much different from the night sky of the empire. The Milky Way is like a white silk inlaid with bright jewels across the black and blue sky. The faintly glowing planets looked like beads scattered from a girl's lost necklace.

"Usually when I can't sleep, I will find a place to look at the sky. I once read such an idea in a book. The perspective is very novel. It is said that all living things originated from the interstellar universe. In the beginning, the world was only before iron. elements, and the elements after that are all produced through supernova explosions. According to this idea, all living things are just a speck of dust in the interstellar space at the beginning, and everything returns to dust after the death of a living thing, and will eventually become a speck of dust. "

He said and paused: "If the initial state and the final state are the same, then what is the meaning of the existence of living things? Human beings are just wandering between the initial state and the final state. Does it mean the same that he never came to the world?"

After he finished speaking, Lancelot's eyes turned from the sky to the people beside him. Although he knew that since Uriah could achieve what he is today, he is naturally a person with deep thoughts and depths, but this People always show a very indecent look in front of themselves.

It turns out that apart from Kane, who is unrestrained and unrestrained in the dungeon, who values ​​love and righteousness, and the aloof and abstinent decathlon marshal in the military department, Uriah also has such a side.

I will pull him out to look at the stars and the Milky Way, and think about some profound philosophical issues.

He recognized a different Uriah again.

Lancelot thought for a moment and said, "I think it can be divided into two levels, micro and macro, just like physical analysis."

Uriah: "How?"

Lancelot: "From a microscopic point of view, a person may be left behind from life to death in this world, but there may be a small number of people who have made extraordinary achievements and left their names in history. But most people in the world are ordinary people, and I think that from this perspective, one of the meanings of life can be to leave more traces of oneself in this world.”

Lancelot also has a good habit of speaking, he will not always

Say all the words at once, but pause in a planned way, leaving a gap for others, and after finishing speaking, your eyes will stay on the other person's eyes to show respect.

Uriah is looking forward to his analysis at the macro level. This person’s way of thinking is always different from others, and every time he talks with him, he can touch many new sparks of thought.

Uriah smiled back and didn't answer, Lancelot understood what he meant and continued: "If you look at human beings or highly intelligent creatures as a whole from a macro perspective, then in fact, not only are there many A great man with high achievements, every ordinary person has contributed to the civilization of the entire interstellar universe. Perhaps the power of one person is insignificant, but the history that can be promoted by groups of people from generation to generation will be witnessed. "

Uriah's eyes turned to the black and blue night sky again: "The meaning of human life is not easy to define. If it is just to leave traces on this world, it may be the villain of the novel. The most evil people in the world are more likely to be seen by others Remember, if you really want definition, you have to add a lot of attributive modifiers."

Lancelot pondered Uriah's words in his heart. He felt that Uriah might have thought about this issue before, otherwise he wouldn't have found his logical loophole in such a short period of time. , It even seems to have an answer.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Uriah continued: "The macro level is very novel. If tonight is a thought exchange meeting, then this point of view will definitely be recorded in my notebook and I will feel that this exchange will be very fruitful. But This point of view is based on the fact that highly intelligent creatures will exist in this world for a long time. Have you ever thought that everything in the world is a zero-sum game. In the beginning, the universe was just a point, and after the explosion, the universe was produced. These elements are like Appearing out of thin air. It’s like a spring with no force acting on it at the beginning, it will be in a state of balance, but once a force is applied, it will deform, and the cosmic explosion is like applying a force to the spring , if one day this power disappears, will everything return to the beginning, return to a point."

"Everything will disappear, return to the original, return to the dust, you and I are the same."

He looked sideways at Lancelot, only to realize that this man was also staring at him seriously.

"Although scientists and researchers have proved that the infinite expansion of the universe is a process of entropy increase, the degree of chaos increases, and this is an irreversible process

Procedure.But science is amazing. It is possible that today's science is tomorrow's pseudoscience. After all, the truths that were once recognized in history are just absurd jokes in today's eyes. There are countless such things. "

"Leaving aside the correctness of this point of view, what I want to express is a way of thinking. Many physical phenomena are actually applicable at the macro and micro levels, and sometimes they can even go beyond a discipline to rise to the philosophical level. If the process of the universe is a Irreversible process, is the continuation process of highly intelligent creatures reversible? In fact, every time I see those ugly bugs in the wormhole, I think about this question. Could it be that the creatures in the universe are just a zero-sum game? Bugs have no IQ, but they have extraordinary combat effectiveness and strong adaptability; highly intelligent creatures have high intelligence, but they can only travel through the interstellar space through technical means. The two are natural enemies, but they also check and balance each other."

"The Zerg War five years ago made me firmly believe that highly intelligent creatures are the masters of this universe, but now the Zerg Abyss has suddenly moved so much earlier, and during the observation and fighting during this period, I became confused. It has risen too fast since five years ago, so fast that the evolution speed of mechs can't keep up with their mutation speed."

"Could it be that the battle between highly intelligent creatures and the Zerg is just a simple zero-sum game in this vast universe, and everything will eventually turn into nothingness."

He paused for a few seconds, and completed the last sentence of this passage: "What will be reduced to nothing in the end also includes the history and civilization that humans have preserved for tens of thousands of years."

Lancelot saw Uriah staring at the night sky, maybe what he saw was not the night sky, maybe the interstellar galaxy, maybe the future of mankind, maybe it was more distant and harder to see than the interstellar galaxy and the future of mankind s things.

That is when the mind peeks into the origin of the world at a certain moment and in a certain dimension.